Thursday, August 15, 2013

Reflection of this summer

I haven't made a textual post in a while and thought I should since my mind has been running wild with different thoughts. It's basically the end of summer and I guess... and I do really hate to admit but my summer didn't turn out the way I thought it would be. I worked a lot, leaving tight schedules which made it hard to make plans with friends and just made others totally give up on me. Or I on them. It's strange really. I don't think I'll ever seem to get over it. It being, how different everything actually is.

I work with a lot of girls who are younger than me. Some a year younger so they just graduated and they're all excited, scared, and nervous for change. Some are two years younger than me so they're just about to enter their senior year. I can't believe how much I missed senior year. Now, I hardly speak to anyone from high school.. let alone see them. Maybe it's my fault, maybe it's theirs. The finger pointing never ends. But I just can't help and think what now.

Even in just a year's time... it's so weird seeing where everyone is at this point in their lives. Party animals, ambitious, or in hiding. It seems as though most of my posts have been about my separation anxiety from high school and the perfection it seemed to be in retrospect. But above all else, how much I miss my old friends.

It seems as though I took this topic in stride... but it pains me every time I let myself think back in time. In anticipation for this summer I thought it would be a chance to rekindle these friendships - deep inside even though I didn't want to admit it. But again, I was wrong. Yet, I have new hopes going on forward.

I think I turned into an archetype hippie this past few months. I tried out yoga which I love and hope to continue this semester at school. I'm slightly more aware of what I eat and what I should or should not eat even though it's difficult to with my culture. And my style is definitely different. Although Mark would like to categorize me as an A class "hipster". I like to call my style bohemian on a budget? A tad corny but oh well. I grew an affinity to nature and pretty scenery which I never really stopped to appreciate before. Hippie yet? Maybe not.

I also decided to take my blog in a different direction. With super big fail on my 30 day snap challenge... I don't think this blog will longer be aimed at tips and advice of products and trends. But will be more a personal and lifestyle blog. I hope to continue posting pictures of outfits and such but possibly more rants. I've been delving in different blogs lately and felt inspired to take my blog in a different direction.

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