Lovely surprise

Lately, I've been more overwhelmed than I have ever experienced in a long time. I haven't been this stress probably since my first arrival at college my freshman year. I've been busy balancing multiple things and it's been tough on me physically and mentally. Last night, it took a toll on me and I sort of lost it. I broke down, my thoughts began to snowball, and basically catastrophe happened.

I typically like to isolate myself and calm myself down whenever something like this happens. I push others away until I'm alone with my thoughts. Which usually, isn't the best thing. I begin to think that I'm left to deal with my problems alone and that's usually where I reach a dead end.

But today I was reminded that I don't have to do anything alone and I'm very grateful that I was.

Late July 4th Fireworks

A huge storm hit the east coast this weekend that put a damper to most peoples' 4th of July plans. I've been stressed and mostly busy this past week which kind of put me down a little because I wanted to spend time with friends and just kind of hangout this long weekend.

Thankfully, since the storm delayed some fireworks shows, I was able to enjoy some fireworks last night with a couple of friends. Since July just started, it kind of put me in that reality check that summer is halfway over and now I have to buckle down and start preparing stuff for school and moving in.

Some summer goals I have for the rest of the summer:

1. Go hiking.
2. Go to a "pick your own" farm.
3. Read at least two books.
4. Go to the high line.
5. Make more time for friends.
6. Study for one hour every other day
7. Keep up with a gym schedule
8. Beach
9. Collect enough unique decorative pieces for my new room.
10. Go to a couple yoga classes.

My Wisdom Teeth Extraction Experience (TMI)

This past Friday, I had my four impacted wisdom teeth removed.

Now, I'm the type of person who wants to know exactly what they're getting into. So leading up to the operation, I had watched several wisdom teeth experience videos, read on mayoclinic what the surgeon does, and read up on things to watch out for after my operation. This didn't necessarily put my mind at complete ease but I felt very prepared and knew exactly what to expect.

I fasted for about six hours and had my operation scheduled for the early morning. I hooked up to a heart rate monitor and had laughing gas to put me at ease. Although I didn't find the gas to make me laugh, I did feel the effects of the gas which made my extremities extremely heavy. I took the general anesthetic intravenously and within a few seconds I guess I passed out.

I only remember dreaming a short dream where I had to follow my dentist around a forest. We kept walking towards the sun but there were these leaves and branches in the way. So I would get glimpses of the light every time I pushed away the leaves but the leaves would just keep blocking my view. Later, I figured that was just the illusion of hands moving across my face blocking the light they shine on your mouth. I don't know how I woke up and I don't remember anyone shaking me or calling my name.

However, when I did wake up I wasn't delirious or in some kind of trance. I was pretty much aware of what was going to happen next. I remember opening my eyes and the first thing I asked was how long did it take. Then I asked for a mirror so I could see what I looked like and I asked to see my teeth that were removed. I was briefly taught how to take care of myself for the next several days. Then before I knew it, I was escorted out into my car and driven home.

I was told that I would have a pretty easy recovery since my dentist was able to remove my teeth in whole pieces rather than cutting up my teeth and removing it that way. Which I agree with. My worst days in terms of pain was probably the day of the surgery and the day after. However, I never resorted to any pain killers that were prescribed to me except for some motrin for my inflamed jaw.

Now that it is Day 3, I can say that I'm just dying to eat a decent and filling meal and that the only pain I can feel is just pain from my cheeks rubbing up against the wounds on my gums which isn't too bad as it sounds.

To anyone who is afraid of removing their wisdom teeth, I recommend that you remove them as early as possible before they grow too large. If you're worried about the pain afterwards, it's not that bad if you know what to expect. I would say the worst thing about this whole thing is that you just can't eat whatever you want because I have been hungry the past 3 days. If you just find a surgeon you trust and some time that you can take off, then go for it!

Great minds talk ideas

As a college student, I'm very well aware of the fact that if I want a job right after college, it's important that I start making connections now.

Connections. Connections. Connections.

It's hard to make a name for yourself without knowing anyone. At first, I thought that only celebrities had a tough industry to get into. Between talent scouts, finding gigs, knowing the right people to help you reach the peak of your career, it can get a little overwhelming. But it's the concept for most if not all jobs out there. A lot of has to do with starting small. Whether it's slaving away volunteer hours or getting involved in a conference related to your major. Absolutely everything counts. Which kind of got me thinking...

Taking a look around friends, past friends, and peers through Facebook, it looks like everyone's doing great. A lot of my friends are going abroad this summer or in the fall semester and others have found great internships and volunteer opportunities at big name hospitals and companies. But here's where I'm trying to point out...

I find myself kind of lagging. I don't want to settle for a job at a small name company. Even if it means doing unpaid volunteer work until I graduate at a large company where I know I want to spend the rest of my career in, so be it. I think I get too caught up in trivial things lately when I should spend my time getting answers and meeting new people that I know will help me in the future. I find myself almost down casting my own ideas because I look to others' opinions too often. No road is the same and not everyone has to travel on the same road.

This summer will probably devoted to making connections with new people in my field. I feel like a lot of my peers are making big moves in the city whereas I'm a sitting duck. I have big dreams that I hope to reach and I won't get there if I don't stop listening to the wrong people.

My First Hip Hop Workshop

A couple weeks ago, I was able to teach my very own beginner's hip hop workshop.

A little about my dancing background. I've danced for about a year for a formal hip hop group during high school and I had a phase where I was totally into dancing. I choreographed personal pieces, I helped a couple of my friends start their own dance group, and I also learned a lot of my ballroom skills dancing for a friend's cotillion. For senior year, I dropped dancing for reasons I don't honestly remember but I knew I was always looking to get back to it in college.

Unfortunately, the university I chose didn't have a dance group that necessarily suit my style. I tried out for this one hiphop/banghara dance group that has a great reputation on campus, got called back, but didn't return because I knew that I wouldn't be able to commit all my time to it because of my heavy work load at the time. Then I found another "group" that hosted weekly workshops sometimes hosted by famous hip hop dancers and sometimes students. I found some satisfaction knowing that I was at least finding some time to dance. This is when I was invited to host my own workshop.

Preparing for this workshop definitely proved to be harder than I remembered. I had dancer's block and I couldn't find the right song or the right moves to fit what I wanted my workshop to be. I found a friend that helped me kind of get things started which helped a lot. I ended up choreographing to this song:

I crafted the choreography to be friendly to beginner dancers because most of the attendees were my friends that just came out to support me and try things out.

Anyone who danced for even half a year would understand that feeling of not being able to dance. This summer I hope to maybe revisit my dance studio and attend more workshops. With my career steadfastly developing and increasingly taking more and more of my time, I hope to still find ways to keep dancing in my life. Dancing is a way of expression and in its most basic form, it's just plain fun.

Beach and City Visits

With only a month of summer left, I'm trying to make the most of it! Despite my bigger expectations at the beginning of the season, I'm pretty content with how most of my summer went. I kept busy with my new job and now that it has pretty much slowed down, I can spend the rest of my free time with friends. With that being said, I went on a couple trips this past week. The first one was a trip to the beach with my family. Which was much needed. It's easy to get caught up in jobs and daily routines that it's important to remember to make most of the time that I get to spend at home. We visited an aquarium and local shops for some treats. We attended a sea lion feeding session where they performed stunts and funny tricks which made me think back to the documentary on dolphins I watched in high school. I wondered if it was sick of me to enjoy watching the sea lions follow orders even if they taught through positive reinforcement. I don't know if those kinds of situations are ever justified.

I took a day trip to NYC to meet up with some friends from college which was pleasant. I enjoyed being tour guide for a day and discovering new spots along the way. I must admit, it sparked a bit of excitement in me which I'm now looking forward to this fall. It was a nice feeling seeing those people outside of school. Since I go to school so far, they seem so intangible and our friendship falters only to be reconstructed four months later. So it was a nice change to see them.

STARTED

I have neglected this blog and I have felt so bad about it. I recently started my first job and it has been taking up so much of my time! So far, so good. My feet ache but at least I'm getting money! It's very exciting and it makes good use of my time. I met a bunch of new people which is always good and I'm so glad to be back in my home town where everywhere you go it is culturally diverse! Honestly, I've never appreciated it until I went to school where majority of the population is white and are not familiar with other ethnicities.

The Sunday before Memorial Day I went shopping at an outlet and I bought my first pair of boat shoes from Clark's! Even though they aren't the authentic original boat shoes from Sperrys, they're still very comfortable! I use them for work because I typically have to stand for eight hours at time. I also added a new Coach bag to my new Coach family! Ever since I started my new job I have been justifying all my purchases by saying I get paid now even though I haven't even received my first pay check. But I need to slow down or else I would have spent all my money before I earned it.

Since I've been working, I haven't had as much time to take pictures which I regret. It just slips my mind. But I also haven't had as much time to be with Mark as I usually do. Today was my only day off and we decided to make it a date night. We watched The Great Gatsby in 3D which was pretty good. The movie did not "wow" me by any means and I think the movie was one way of interpreting the novel. Then we ate a CPK for dinner which was yummy! I love CPK. Usually just hanging out is fun but going on a proper movie and a dinner kind of date still means a lot and I'm glad we're still able to do it.

It's already nearing the end of May and I'm happy to say that I accomplished most of my goals for this month. Not that I'm a formal goal setter. But I thought this month was a very productive one. And the last thing I wanted was an unproductive summer. I hope by next month I'll get a hang of this whole working thing, get back to reading books on my kindle, and making time for people that want to hangout.

Summer Begins!

So I've been home for a week and so far, so great. It's kind of hard getting out of the habit of constantly thinking of what you have to get done next and where you have to be. It's definitely a big lift off my shoulders.

However, I'm still trying to be productive with my time. Of recent, I realized that I just wasted so much money on my first year of college on just textbooks and not getting the best deal I can. Right now I'm trying to be smart with selling my textbooks and making sure that I don't buy any textbooks that I can definitely do without. Speaking of books, I bought so many books during winter break that I had intentions of finishing before spring semester. While I still have those to finish, I'm excited for the third book of the Divergent series now called Alllegiant! It's supposed to come out October 22 this year and the movie Divergent is set to release this coming March!

Honestly, I just can't wait to just catch up on my reading, sleep, and friends. I'm so glad that I got out so early because I just see my friends suffering from finals this late into May and I'm just happy that I got it all over with! Having a shorter academic year even if it's slight definitely proves its advantages.

Today, I watched Iron Man 3 with Mark for the second time and it was definitely just as good as the first time I saw it. Overall, I thought it was a really good movie that I can see be an audience pleaser. Iron Man's character and personality is definitely a favorite for moviegoers just because he's charismatic and comedic. I realized the main difference of my two movie experiences are the crowds. Typically, someone would rather have a theater to themselves but I think having a large crowd of people watching a movie with you, even if they're complete strangers, can enhance the experience for you. While my first viewing was full of people, I was comfortable laughing and reacting out loud to the movie because others were doing the same. However, the second time I saw it, there was just a handful of people and the humorous parts of the movie kind of passed over and dissipated without any reaction which kind of dampened the experience. But that's more of an extraneous feature of movie watching.

In celebrity news, Angelina Jolie spoke about how she got a double mastectomy because of her fears of contracting breast cancer like her mother and so she went to extreme preventative measures. When I came home today I found my anatomy book sprawled on the dinner table and I asked my parents what was it doing there. Turns out my parents were trying to figure out what mastectomy meant. For the longest time my dad talks about how he was a pre-med major and constantly shares his never ending wisdom on medicine. Basically, my mom ended up accidentally urinated through her pants because of how hard she was laughing at my dad because he was so sure that mastectomy was some kind of vasectomy. Similar, not really.

Source For Allegiant Cover Art

Another tough week!

Now, along with the rest of the college students population, we are embarking the end of our college year! Whether it is your first year, last year, in the middle of your traditional four years, it is nostalgic either way. I'm finding that as I get older, there are a lot more change and nostalgic opportunities to miss. Which just makes me want to take pictures and make more memories all along the way.

This was another tough week at school. I have my finals next week and the semester is quickly finishing up. But thankfully, there is always an upside to everything. The weather has finally eased up and spring has come to stay! I decided to embrace the weather and go on a little photoshoot of my own. I decided that this floral chiffon dress from Pacsun would suit the feel very well. After this past winter, I almost forgot what it was like to experience good weather. There was constant snow and extremely cold weather that I forgot what it was like to have fun outside and wear light clothes. I can honestly say I have never appreciated warm weather like I do now. Unfortunately, my spring allergies have found me too. But allergies are just a small price to pay.

Tomorrow night I get so Macklemore and it definitely will be an amazing experience. Lately, it has seemed the semester could not have passed any slower but now that I'm looking back it has flown by and I'm contemplating if I were able to, would I ask for more time.

But enough of that. I can't wait for this summer and getting to relax! These past two semesters have definitely asked a lot of me. I can't wait for next year where hopefully, I'll find more time to delve into extracurricular activities and just be more involved. Can't wait to see Mark and all my friends back home. Summer is just in 11 days! :)

This Past Weekend

This past weekend I went to support a friend at his play, Rosencrantz and Guildenstern! I was fairly impressed with how professional the acting and costume design was! Then I went to my first concert, if it only took me long enough. I went to see Tyga, Cobra Starship, and Big Sean. It was a really great experience and it was really fun. Besides the pushing and getting to close for comfort with random strangers, I loved seeing them in concert! This concert just got me ten times more excited for the Macklemore concert I'm going to next weekend.

This week has been hectic! Yesterday I had two tests and a project due and I'm just so glad it's over. I've been itching to shop lately especially since the warm weather has finally come to stay where I am. I've also realized I haven't been keeping up in the shoe game which I usually do and I need to be able to cop some wedged sneakers, more gladiators that are more recent, and doc martens maybe! Countdown til the end of the semester is getting smaller and smaller! I have 19 days left at school but only 10 days of school left!

Has anyone seen the new Catching Fire trailer? I am a huge fan of the Hunger Games and Catching Fire is my absolute favorite out of the trilogy but watching the trailer made me skeptical. I have some issues with the way they are presenting the information of the story to the audience that do not already know the plot. I feel almost as if they are giving points that should have been kept a secret til the movie and since they did give it away, it is more in favor of someone who already read the series. We'll have to wait for more trailers to come out. But I hope I turn out wrong.

Skinny people SUCK

I remember even thinking like this since middle school. I never understood why people thought skinny had a positive connotation to it. It's the fact that society assigned a negative connotation to the word fat so the population assumes that the opposite word with the opposite meaning assumes the positive. Naturally so, because it's logical. But I disagree. I don't know how the next "skinny" person feels but being skinny is not all that great. Yeah, flat stomachs, thigh gaps, and tight arms are the three amazing things that everyone lusts for and those are the three things skinny people have. But coming to college I realized that skinny people can be bullied too.

And before whoever you are that's reading this thinks "Bullshit." let me put it in context for you.

Since I've been here I've been reminded, noted (almost) on a daily basis, and teased about how easily I can die. I get told that I can be easily be stepped upon and instantly die. If I were in a car full of people and we got into a terrible car accident, I'd be the first to die. I'm so skinny that I can be broken up because of how thin I am and die. Etc. I get it's all fun and games but here is what I don't get.

To me, all those remarks are synonymous to telling someone who is fat or obese that they need to lose weight or diet immediately because

1. They are at a higher risk of getting cancer.
2. They are at a higher risk of getting diabetes.
3. They are at a higher risk of heart failure.

So you better start losing weight. Or else you'll die.

In a room full of people. If someone were to ever, ever joke to someone "You're so fat you can get CANCER." I'm sure it won't be humorous anymore. And I always get the "Oh god Christine, POOR YOU. YOU ARE SO DAMN SKINNY. YOUR LIFE SUCKS." sarcastic remark. Well, ok I'll take that in stride because in some ways I do find myself lucky to be blessed with my body. But people need to just stop being so comparative. Living on a floor full of girls, it gets maddening. It pisses me off how people who are half an inch taller than me act like they are a foot taller. And how someone who has the same exact body type as me complain how fat she is in comparison to someone who truly is more heavy than her. I get it. Skinny people have it better. Whatever! Everyone needs to take a look in the same damn mirror and realize what you see is what you get. And as long as you're living healthy there are other things to worry about.

And the thing to take away from this blog post since you did get to the end is much like people calling stupid things "gay" or calling someone stupid a "faggot" are misused slang that offend homosexual men. Calling someone a "stick" or someone "skinny" are also misused slang that offend thinner people. People just need to be more aware of the underlying context of what they're saying and "skinny" is a word that most often get overlooked. And people who make the comments and think skinny people don't get offended because their life is so good they don't have a muffin top are ignorant. Because regardless of how skinny people are they still are humans and have feelings and insecurities AND DON'T LIKE BEING TOLD THEIR LIFE EXPECTANCY CAN GO FROM 100 TO 19 AT ANY SECOND. So before you say how lucky someone is because of how skinny they are then do a self-check and remember this blog post.

Because I'd rather be called healthy than skinny.

Happy Easter!!

Happy Easter! This Easter is kind of weird for me because I usually spend this holiday with family but this year I'm spending it away at school. This week at school has been absolutely ridiculous! I have been stressed out and so busy especially since I hardly did any homework in preparation over spring break. But I was so relieved once this week was over with and I had the weekend to relax. I spent the weekend hanging out and catching up on sleep more or less. I already miss being home because I hate being in this routine for school because of how I stressed I get and I never have enough time to just recover and escape it. But I only have 5 more weeks of school and then I'm out for the summer!

A snack I have also been loving are these Darrel lea's soft chew licorice. They are so delicious that I had to try every flavor! My favorite has to be strawberry flavor by far! You can buy these at Target, Whole Foods, Shop Rite, or even Rite Aid!

Spring Trends for Tops!

Today was incredibly tiring! I spent majority of my day traveling and unpacking. I woke up early to head to school and then I spent a lot of time settling back into my dorm. I tried to do homework but it was just impossible. I spent time catching up with people and hanging out. Tomorrow is going to be a slap to the face because it'll be the first day back after spring break. I am absolutely not looking forward to it. This week is already a bad week as it is with scheduling appointments on top of tests and midterms.

Anyways! With the warm weather slowly but surely approaching it's time to update our wardrobes! There are three styles I'm looking into this spring and summer. I love the tailored look so collars are always a plus. I love this black and white patterned tank with gold button detailing with a collar. It's perfect in the professional world in the summer time and also the perfect top to make casual pants a bit more dressy! I also  try not to neglect simple, graphic tee's. Although it is senseless to buy these shirts at Forever 21 because you can definitely get it for cheaper at your local thrift store and make it to how you like it. Last summer I was very into coral tops but this summer I'm attracted to mint hues more. I can't wait for the warm weather so I can start wearing these babies!

Spring Break!

I have felt so bad about abandoning or going on a month long unannounced hiatus. But school has been overwhelming and stressful as usual so this blog has kind of been put off on the back burner. BUT since I am currently on spring break and that it is official spring somewhere by the end of this week, that means spring fashion is here! Although I am a "winter baby" my favorite season is summer. I just love the fashion and colors so much more than winter or fall. With that in mind, I have already broke bank on shopping for spring clothes!

This spring I am definitely delving into high waisted shorts, crop tops, bustiers, and bold prints. All of which is usually out of my comfort zone but since they are definitely on trend of this spring/summer I am definitely willing to try.

But honestly, I cannot believe that spring break is already here. I feel like I blinked twice and all of the sudden I am in the latter quarter of my freshman year in college. Seriously so much has changed, but of course, when has it not. I believe that there are good things to come and I have been trying to just live in the moments because before I know it, it'll be another beginning to another year and I'll be stuck living in the past. I hope the rest of the week turns out to be productive and filled with reconnecting moments! But as for tonight, I'll be busy catching up on Teen Vogues that I've missed while at school and enjoying the strawberry scent of my strawberry candle from Bath and Body Works.

Happy Valentine's Day!

Since I was away at school on Valentine's Day I had to wait until tonight to celebrate it with my Valentine! Anyways Friday night reminded me how bad it was to travel home by bus. The bus is never on time, always takes longer than expected, and overall tiring! But that doesn't matter once I finally get to sleep in my own bed again :)

Anyways, tonight was perfect. Mark picked me up around 5 and we headed out to eat at Grand Lux Cafe which is a sister company of the Cheesecake Factory. But of course, we first made a stop at Best Buy on the way in because Mark has an obsession with collecting blu rays. Dinner was great and the restaurant was packed. I had my favorite cheesecake which is just the plain original cheesecake. We both finally got to watch Silver Linings Playbook after dinner and it was so good. I went into the movie without knowing anything about the plot and that is usually how I like going into these movies other than reading the book beforehand. But the camera work was really interesting. It almost had a home movie feel to it and the movie had an offsetting humor to its serious moments but I totally see that as just a characteristic of the movie. Overall I enjoyed it. Jennifer Lawrence was amazing and totally a natural. And I think the best theme that I got out of the movie was just finding someone just was weird as you can be the person you're meant to be with. Corny.

Afterward we got some bubble tea and went home. When Mark came to pick me up he got out of his car with a bouquet of flowers. I hate sounding like those girls that ABSOLUTELY love showing off their relationship and completely making single girls, especially desperate ones, pissed off or annoyed and hate the entire couple population. But I'll take Valentine's as my one day to show off. But when I saw him, I thought it was the sweetest thing ever and just perfectly what I imagine the beginning of a date would be like haha. I admit I was a little embarrassed because I thought my parents would peek out of the window and see him but oh well. I know Mark tries really hard to impress me because it's pretty hard to get a reaction out of me so if you're reading this right now, I was truly impressed.

Tonight I feel extremely blessed and content. I appreciate having Mark in my life and being able to celebrate our amazing relationship in moments like these. Good job tonight babe. I love you<3

Sick With a Virus

This past Thursday I caught a virus. My body ached and I had coughing fits. I was seriously miserable. But thankfully, my roommate decided to go home this weekend giving me a chance to have the room to myself and fully recuperate. It's tough being this sick on your own. I'm usually lazy but being this sick makes me ten times more lazy. Usually I could just call my mom's name and say that I want some soup. Then twenty minutes later there will be some hot chicken noodle soup and some crackers on my bed side table.

I hate being sick during the school year. It's so inconvenient. Last semester I was terrified of getting sick and then having my grades compromised because I can't perform well. Funny enough, I'm sick at the beginning of this semester and I have my first test coming up in about five days. Some of my quiz grades have already been reflective on how I've been feeling. I hope I'm feeling at least 90% well by Sunday night. Unfortunately, I go to college where it's seriously 15 degrees out at noon every day and there's a lot of walking to do when going class to class.

I can't wait until I get to go home in about two weeks. It has been a stressful start to this semester and I think everyone on my floor would agree. Especially with the cold and a virus going around. I can't believe it but I'm putting most of my trust on a groundhog. This morning Phil the groundhog didn't see his shadow indicating that spring is just around the corner. I hope he's right haha.

Losing is hard to do

Have you ever gotten into an argument where you were so convinced that you were right and that the other person was wrong? You both go at it giving some good concrete evidence until suddenly you get that plummeting feeling? Suddenly you opponent gives a good comeback that shatters your stance and suddenly you lose your ground. You realize you're wrong but you're not wiling to back down. So you settle for fallacies, particularly ad hominems, an attack on the opponents character irrelevant to the argument. But the last thing you want to do is back off and admit you're wrong even though you find yourself in a corner. 

I know it's hard admitting you're wrong. I find it hard too. For the longest time I would just get mad whenever I lost. It's a trait we all acquired because of society and also how we are all wired. Losing is one of the worst feelings we can feel and psychologically, hormones channel our losing memories to the deepest part of the brain so that we will never forget it. And believe it or not, it affects our entire body. Everything slows down and physically and emotionally.

So when I see someone in that kind of situation, where they just see they are wrong. If they back down and admit it, I suddenly gain a new found respect for them. It's hard to admit defeat. It's not only upsetting but it's also kind of embarrassing. But it's also something else - mature. 

Happy Birthday To Me! :)

Today I turned 19! Although it was a rough start to my day, I went to a local cafe with Daisy and Mark. We had a late lunch there and we ended up playing video games and watching The Possession the entire day. I particularly like scary movies unlike Daisy and Mark, but it didn't end up too scary. I love the gifts they got me! Although in the picture, the blazer looks coral, it's actually bright fuchsia. I've been trying to build my collection of blazers and Daisy got me a perfect pink one to add to my collection :) Mark got me a digital picture frame that is filled with pictures of us over the years! At first, I thought it was just going to be a blank picture digital frame that I would need to fill myself. But good thing he did it already. :)

Tonight is my last night at home and winter break is actually over. It happened so fast, I don't know where the time went! I mean I'm already 19 and life seems to be going too fast... Tuesday, I'll be embarking on my second semester in college and it feels like just yesterday it was the summer before college before anything changed between friends and lifestyles. It's crazy to think that my first year at college it already halfway over. I hope spring semester will treat me as well as my first fall semester did. :D

Too much reading adds drama to my diction

Majority of my afternoon was spent with the lovely, Alexandria. 'Ello Alex :) It's always a good vibes, good times kind of day whenever I spend it with that girl. Whether it's on the phone or in person. I just always feel so enlightened and comforted after talking because we always just seem to be on the same page and we always have insights to share. And, my cheeks always hurt afterwards.

After dinner, I headed out with Mark to a local mall just to get out of the house again and spend some time together. The rain storm that I had to drive through terrified me but luckily on the way home, the heavens calmed down to a light drizzle.

I intend to keep the rest of my break like today. Although, I started butting heads with my parents today. Conservative strict parents are an obstacle that I constantly have to face. Even though I am on the verge of escaping and slowly locking away my teenage years, I am still treated as if I am just entering them. As I patiently await the day my parents finally recognize me as an adult I am stuck with the chains that most thirteen year old's bear.

The rest of my night consist of eating the rest of my Pillsbury cookies and watching Robin Hood while Mark keeps up 'til morning. :)

Surround yourself with people that only inspire you.

I saw Les Misérables today for the second time and it was just as good! Although, I didn't catch myself tearing up as much. Maybe because I was having too much fun just singing along with the characters. After the movie and hanging out I was so tired. So I ended up napping the most of my afternoon. When I woke up I had a small chat with Daisy! I can't wait until we can hangout again :) Oh and I'm just obsessed with Pillsbury easy to bake cookies. They are just so easy and so yummy...

I don't want this break to end. I love just doing nothing! Now I absolutely can't wait for summer where I'll have four months to just sit idly. But there's still spring break to look forward to! Ugh, life is just moving so fast. I feel like it's so hard to just enjoy it. I had a weird revelation recently. I never just sat down and evaluated the kinds of people I surrounded myself. It's kind of funny how I came across the thought. I was watching people on YouTube and I just saw how they were all surrounded by people that inspired them. People that encouraged them and did nothing but support and make them happy. I want to get to that place again. Where I feel like it's easy to be successful just because of the people I'm surrounded by. People that inspired me to try new, innovative things that will increase my skills and just expand my knowledge. I would love to meet people like that.

Of course, I met those kinds of people at college. But I wish I was surrounded more by people like that at home. Just people with extraordinary passions. I don't know. Maybe I should just admit defeat and enter the YouTube community. The kind of seem like my people.